THE BIGGEST TURN OFF IN A GUY TO ME IS....

A GUY THAT WANTS TO SLEEP AROUND, that is just nasty n dirty ugggh I look at that as if you dont take a bath or shower thats how nasty that is!!!

I will not stoop

I will not stoop to your level, Im better than that, You can keep doing dirt and trynna cover it up by saying that Im doing shit but honey what you dont know if I will not and never will stoop down to your level.... You see Im high and you low. So quit with the fake bullshit  and the whack games. GET ON MY LEVEL BITCH!!!

This boy is as stupid as a box of rocks

So some chick posted some shit about text her cuz she got a new phone first off who the fuck is this bitch?? Um second off why the fuck you got this girls number some random ass girl that just appeared on his page and not only that she is on my homegirls page too!!! So I check out this page, this bitch is a young buck, so once again who the hell is she??? Now Im not usually the one to trip on shit unless its weird but umm this girl in hs and ummm you talking to her on the phone and shit like seriously wtf? Oh she a friend AKA custo...REAAAALLLY SOOO THIS BITCH BEEN TO YOUR HOUSE???? no fuck no, BUT SHE YOUR CUSTO HUH??? HOW THE FUCK SHE A CUSTO IF AINT GOT NO CAR AND SHE AINT BEEN TO YOUR HOUSE??? MY NIGGA I WASNT BORN YESTERDAY AND IVE HAD PLENTY OF HOMEBOYS, CUZZINS AND UNCLES....NIGGA YOU CANT FOOL ME!!! THIS SOME BITCH YO ASS WAS TRYNNA HOLLA AT TALKING ABOUT SHE A CUSTO. But yet yo ass always accusing me of shit?? But you got some young bitches on your page?? You have one of your exs on your page which that don't bother me but when this some new bitch and you cant tell me who the fuck she is where she came from and then LIE about the shit saying you know her brother....yaaaa okay but her brother aint on ya page, then saying you dont even know her, then how the fuck is she a custo, LIES LIES LIES AND MORE MOTHA FUCKING LIES!!! Bitch just cuz I seem like Im always busy better know that I stay on top of my relationship, try your shit on some other bitch not this one...That was just some hoe you was trynna hook up with and ya ass got caught cuz she posted some shit on your page hoe ass nigga!!

First day of school...

I was awake this morning bit g golly its 7:51 pm wtheck.... anywho I feel that this semester is going to be a good semester :)

So its 12:30am and I can't sleep...

I can't help but to noticed that facebook lets you know whats up, lets you know a lot of whats up. Now I understand that for the last week Iv'e been in my own zone with Jaylynn starting school and shit but ummm dont mean I aint paying attention to certain shit. Now I dont know if its that Im on my period or what but ummm I saw some shit on facebook that had me thinking and wondering.... Now Im the one thats always getting accused of doing shit and Im also the one that gets told that Im going to get cheated on because they cant be with just one person. Im also the one thats told that I have extra baggage because I have a child but yet Im the one thats always getting accused of some shit.... Now when I do the accusing I usually have some kind of proof because guys this days aint man enough to be real...they try to twist up a story to make it seem like it aint that bad...excuse me when your talking shit about me to your lil internet gf and telling her that you want someone who looks like her telling her you not attracted to me and telling her that Im a bi cunt and I wont tell him, first off bitch if I were bi I wouldnt be in no relationship for the fact of the matter is with any bisexual ass person there is always going to be some going back in forth 2nd off if I was bi You wouldve known I told you that I used to think I was bi in highschool but I never tried anything with another chick!!! Honey you obviously think Im stupid as fuck or something cuz I copied and pasted it!!! You tried to change that whole convo around on it trynna say you said one thing when you didnt and when I told you I had the convo you tried to say I was lying about that ha ya okay...one thing I cant stand is two faced people... I dont give a fuck what you try to hold against me, there really aint shit you can hold against me, ohhh woooow i got a few gay friends ohhh wooooow I can get shit from people with out giving up anything and  you have to give up shit to get stuff from people??? You call me sneaky and shit when the sneaky one in all reality is you!!! I seen a comment left on some chicks page but its cool you wanna talk all this shit about how supposedly I talk to all these different nigga and shit behind your back alright thats cool, anything that covers you be my guess.  All that bullshit talk I got extra baggage and shit dont worry, and that shit that I'm bi, the stupid lil lies you tell females about me, the "your just going to end up cheating on me because you get tired of being with the same girl" (the only reason you said that is cuz being with the same girl that girl will catch on to your bullshit and you dont wanna be hurt in the process), the we are never going to get along with each other, yeah your right nigga cuz I catch on to anyone bullshit quick and you know it, and you know I aint doing shit thats why drives you up a wall but its cool your next chick better keep a leash on the girl cuz ummmm KARMA GONNA EAT YO ASS ALIVE!!!!

Speaking out of Annoyances!

Play dumb, act like Im this stupid chick that believes anything,  and even play victim like I'm doing dirt but know that I see right through people's bullshit...

You can sit here and lie and I can sit here and act like I'm with it but know that deep down inside I know you lying....
You can sit there and accuse me all you want and break my shit at it but know nigga I ain't done a gah damn thing so you making yourself look foolish....
You can sit there and dog me out and make it seem like I'm such a huge problem I'm a cry baby and I act like a kid but know that at least I don't sit around all day with too much time on my hand worrying about why my friends don't hit me up....
Call me secretive, a cheater, and a liar and I know exactly what to know about you.....
The stuff that you assumed about me was just your conscience eating you alive and you use excuses to do even more dirt, its like you know your karma is gonna bite you in the ass so you do shit thinking you getting back at someone when you ain't because the person not even doing shit so you only digging yourself a bigger hole....
You can say that I sold my poonani for cash, there are people out there that are giving people and just because you expect something out of cash doesn't mean that everyone is like you. Have you ever thought maybe God was looking out for me???  Is everything an eye for an eye in your book? When I help others out I don't look for any help in return.
Know that when I'm in a weird mood its because I'm thinking of all of this and it pisses me off but by the end of the day I realize why the hell am I letting shit that doesn't even matter because its all in a fucked up minded person head
What you don't know is I am nothing like you and will never be and if you aren't that faithful and respectful guy that I would like to have then GOD will put that in my life.

Funny...

He says " your secretive you keep things to yourself" but I don't keep anything to myself that's the thing. I tell everything about myself is the problem. Just lets me know that he's a secretive person and that he tells me a lot of stuff to make it seem like he telling me everything but he not. Just like when the constantly accusing someone of cheating and your constantly accusing someone of being secretive its only because you got things your hiding. The funny thing is the person your accusing of doing is doing neither haha so go ahead say what you will, but its cool what ever floats your boat.

Unhappy People....

Try to ruin other people's happiness

Too all the....

baby fathers who didn't want to act right while you was with baby mama don't put stuff in your child's head just because your upset because baby momma done moved on, all of that bs your putting in that childs ear is only going to backfire when they really find out more about their father. Its already starting too. Telling a child your mom tried to get rid of you is soo damn childish and most of all ignorant. Also telling your child that her mom only sends her off to you is so she can spend all of her time with her bf is dumb because what about when the girl didn't have a boyfriend what the excuse then??? I send her down there so she can spend time with her father not so I can spend time all of my time with my bf. Last I heard is that you weren't getting to spend enough time with her and wanted to keep her for a week, then 2 weeks out the summer yet when I agree to it and then you lie to the child. Then want to know why there is an emotional distatchment. People are just ungrateful and I've noticed you cant be too nice to some people... Its like their getting over on you slowly but showly...

Just Think about things said..

Just thinkin....

I love my life!!!!

I am not a two faced person for if I have anything to say to you I will say it in your face not behind your back! I am not perfect by far, I have my imperfections just like everyone else, which consist of forgiving to easily, being easily distracted, procrastinating, falling for guilt trips and not realizing I fell for it months down the line, speaking my mind too much to the wrong people, I'm hard headed, I don't listen to those who are actually looking out for me, I set myself up for failure in somethings in life, I let people get away with things, I let people play me for a fool, I don't stand up for myself at the right time. When I get in relationship I tell entirely too much stuff about myself I don't know why but it pisses me off that I do it and I know I do it but I still don't stop...

Its not that I don't understand I choose not to understand...

I am not ever out for revenge I leave it all in Gods hands for I am not God!!!

On the other hand I'm goofy, sometimes clueless (that's where the name comes from), funny, crazy, smart (VERY SMART!!!), I'm very self-motivated, I'm DETERMINED.  I'm grateful for the things and the great people God himself sends my way! Im blessed and I realize it!!! No matter how bad someone pisses me off (unless their messing with my family) I do not look for revenge, its a waste of time and effort and seriously WHAT DO YOU GAIN FROM IT??? Nothing but bad karma!!! When I say Im going to do something and I have my heart set on doing it better believe I'M GOING TO DO IT!!! I LOVE ME!!!

WTHECK ARE THEY TEACHING OUR CHILDREN???

I'm not Complicated

I'm not complicated its just that weak minded people can't handle me!

Woooow what a week this has been...

Some people struggle in life and can't find a solution for the struggle. Though they have someone giving them the greatest of advice they still don't care to listen to the advice instead they keep going their way and complaining every step of the way...

This motha ..... is getting on my nerves with this you messed with someone, you talk to someone else, you acting weird GROW UP PLEASE your pushing me away maybe thats what you want but I about to be over the edge because I cant deal with this too much longer. I cant stand someone who thinks Im doing shit when I aint. Ive only been throw this childish bs with 1 person and its annoying and I dont wanna deal with it no more because its making me think he doing shit and feeling guilty, if you dont appreciate me God will put someone in my life who will. Tired of the same ol your doing this your doing that honey your mouth is saying this and its saying that now who is the one thats really doing something???? ITS OLLLLD!!!!

What are they teaching our children???

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UQs1Grbl0Hc

Today

HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY EVERYONE!!!!

Today I woke up in a good mood. I love life!!! Life is good no matter how much stuff you have to deal with!!!

If he want...

If he want to act like a dog treat him like a dog :)

Just a little thought of the day :)

Don't tell someone to do something with their life when your not doing anything with yours...yes everyone is a hypocrite to a certain extent but not to this extent.

It Feels Good

Over all the hurt and pain it feel GREAT having friends tell you they got your back...it really means ALOT to me!!! I really am a good person. I have self control...I have self respect... I dont give have to give a piece of ass for a dollar... and when Im getting done dirty, I dont look out for revenge... I talk to my buddies about whats going on and no I dont tell them stuff so Ill get self pity I tell all parts of the story not just bits and peices of the story... I love them because no matter if Im in the wrong or right they tell it like it is...They dont just say shit to make me feel good inside and they know that speaking their mind might hurt me that Ill get mad at the shit but by the end of the day we are all over it and Im the same way with them. It takes you being real with yourself and not just with yourself but with everyone else to have good friends like I do...and it feels good.

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My diary...

I prove to people Im better than them but not doing what they saying or thinking im doing

One of many examples from many people:

"better watch those black girl, theyll make you get them pregnant run off with your kid and put you on child support"

My response: You see your child dont you??? Your not on child support are you???

Another example:

"we've had a rocky past and I know your going to cheat in the future"

My response: You dont know nothing, I aint going to cheat...but maybe you cheated and you trying to make it seem like it was far off past or trying to say I talk to other guys to make up shit to cover up your stuff cuz you talking to other girls, whatever the case  I dont cheat to get back at people,  I don't cheat at all, so what you speak just makes me wonder everyday about you....